I was fretting a little just now, as I baked chocolate chip cookies (terrible how little my mind settles....).
I was wondering about my children's futures...what lies ahead for them? who will they become? what will their place be in this world? .... and an old fear reared it's head - that fear that asks if I became all that my parents wanted me to be...
And I suddenly assumed that all children both disappoint and delight their parents.... I'm sure that no child becomes everything that their parents wished for them, and yet, I wondered.... would I be open enough to see all that IS that I never imagined?
And God spoke to me... and told me not to worry because these are not MY children, but HIS... That I should never worry about sending my children into the world, because that is what they were made for.. that every child is His gift to the world... that He sends every child into the world to be a beautiful and wonderful part of his Creation.
They are mine to LOVE, and to cherish... to ground... to give a home... and then send them out to become all that HE created them to be.
I'll maybe sign off now to shed a few tears and take my cookies out of the oven.
Aloha,
Emily
Sunday, 9 September 2012
Friday, 7 September 2012
September 7th
A little update.
I'm all over the map emotionally tonight, so not sure what I am going to write about, but here I am.
Sometime early in the new year, I put it out to the Universe that I thought it was time for a life makeover. Little did I know how seriously the Universe felt that was true. Many things have turned upside down for me in that time. Right now, it's so challenging to move forward with all the changes in front of me that it's just plain hard.
Having said that, I am learning that everything happens for a reason, according to God's divine plan for my life. AND that what I may have in mind could be greatly insignificant compared to what He has in mind.
About 2 years ago, I created a dream board. The other night when I was packing, I pulled it off the wall of my office and I think my jaw literally dropped. There, staring me in the face, were things that I had visualized that had come true.
One of those things, was a picture of Cheryl Richardson. I chose her photo out of a magazine - not with any real relevance to her at all actually - but just because she inspired me to be the sort of person who makes a difference in other people's lives.
Little did I know that she would be making a difference in my life throughout all of this. Reading her book, "The Unmistakable Touch of Grace" has been a grounding experience throughout all of this.
And despite the ups and downs of my "life makeover", it has been a constant reminder of what is most important in life.... living love.
Much has changed in my life, but the love in my life has only grown. In some new and unexpected ways even. I celebrate my 12th anniversary with my husband this weekend - and am so blessed for all that we have to celebrate together.
Someone wise once told me that no matter how difficult the decisions you have to make... no matter how emotional things are... or how lost you feel.... stay true to your values and you will find the right way.
Aloha,
Emily
I'm all over the map emotionally tonight, so not sure what I am going to write about, but here I am.
Sometime early in the new year, I put it out to the Universe that I thought it was time for a life makeover. Little did I know how seriously the Universe felt that was true. Many things have turned upside down for me in that time. Right now, it's so challenging to move forward with all the changes in front of me that it's just plain hard.
Having said that, I am learning that everything happens for a reason, according to God's divine plan for my life. AND that what I may have in mind could be greatly insignificant compared to what He has in mind.
About 2 years ago, I created a dream board. The other night when I was packing, I pulled it off the wall of my office and I think my jaw literally dropped. There, staring me in the face, were things that I had visualized that had come true.
One of those things, was a picture of Cheryl Richardson. I chose her photo out of a magazine - not with any real relevance to her at all actually - but just because she inspired me to be the sort of person who makes a difference in other people's lives.
Little did I know that she would be making a difference in my life throughout all of this. Reading her book, "The Unmistakable Touch of Grace" has been a grounding experience throughout all of this.
And despite the ups and downs of my "life makeover", it has been a constant reminder of what is most important in life.... living love.
Much has changed in my life, but the love in my life has only grown. In some new and unexpected ways even. I celebrate my 12th anniversary with my husband this weekend - and am so blessed for all that we have to celebrate together.
Someone wise once told me that no matter how difficult the decisions you have to make... no matter how emotional things are... or how lost you feel.... stay true to your values and you will find the right way.
Aloha,
Emily
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