December 5

"I love the way you lie...."

These words come from a favourite pop song of my right now by Eminem and Rihanna....

Sometimes we accept lies... untruth...

We allow pain and resentment, apathy, ignorance, disregard to settle in our lives like water trapped in puddles after a flood.... but they stagnate and breed disease.  Our lives become swamps and we get stuck, bogged down by the rot and decay of life lived devoid of the light.... and we get sick... and wonder why we can never get healthy....

Can I admit that I am guilty of accepting lies because the truth would be harder to accept?

Yes.... But the light is growing brighter.... Like sunshine on a meadow of wildflowers...

Once, I wasn't doing very well.  I felt lost and exhausted.  I felt bogged down.

I sat in my front room and turned my face to the sun to take a few deep breaths and regain myself.  And in that moment, I recall that I turned my face, eyes closed to the sun.... Initially, the sun shone dark and red through my eyelids....but within moments, the light pulsed, growing brighter and whiter until it was pure and white.... and the lord spoke to me and said, "I want to fill your life with love and light".  And I knew that I was strong enough to overcome anything, and that he would always find a way to bring me back into his love and light when I wandered into darkness.

I don't believe anymore that God sits and waits for us to return when we wander.

I believe that He is with us everywhere, always.... trying to fill our lives with love and light if we will let Him.

God has always spoken to me through music... and I thank him for the gift of music that he is teaching me to rediscover right now.  Music is truly a language of love.....

Aloha,
Emily